Announcement

Hi everyone!

I’ve got some news. Over the past few weeks I’ve realized some things. One, that I have been a terrible blogger (or maybe that I just am a terrible blogger) and two, that I don’t belong here (in LA) any more. So how am I going to fix these problems? Well, I’m going to kick myself in the pants and start blogging again, and I’m going to move.. again. That’s right, I’ll be back home in Seattle in a few short weeks. I must admit, it seems a little rash, but let me assure you that this is a decision that I did not make lightly.

When I first made the move back to LA I wrote this blog post. It was all about “completing the circle.” I’ve since realized that the circle will never be complete. In fact, there is no circle. There is just life and if you are lucky enough to keep living it than that is exactly what you need to do. That is what I need to do. Live my life as the person that I want to be, with the people I want to be around, in the place that I want live. And as much as I’ve tried to make that place be LA, it’s just not. I really, really thought that it was, I mean it definitely was the place for me at one point, but it’s not the place for me now. I’m a different person now, and as much as I want to be where my friends are, I know it’s not the right place for me to be right now. But I also know now that we don’t have to be in the same place to be friends. We are bonded, we love each other, and distance isn’t an obstacle in our friendship, like I used to fear that it would be.

I don’t regret coming back to LA. It was something that I had to do. It was my goal, my reason to keep going, to keep breathing while I was sick. I got through my most miserable days by keeping my focus on one goal, getting back to LA. I didn’t have a countdown to the end of chemo, I had a countdown to when I could move back to Los Angeles, to my friends, to my home. So how could I not go back? I couldn’t see past that goal until I accomplished it. It would have never occurred to me that everything I wanted was right in front of me if I hadn’t come back here. But now I know. So I’m going back. In all honesty, I didn’t give Seattle a fair shot. I did everything I could not to settle down there because I was so focused on returning to LA.

I’m so grateful for the three months that I will have had here. The chance to spend time with some of my favorite people, to show Val one of my favorite places. The chance to try it all again and to realize that things are different now, that I am different now. I am ready to go home now, I’m ready to start my life again.

Thank you all for your support, even through my silence. Expect to hear more from me soon.

xoxo Kathy

Photo on 11-13-14 at 8.46 PM #3

Surgery and Life Update

Hello all of you beautiful people,

As some of you know I had surgery on both of my hips to help with my Avascular Necrosis (AVN) this past Wednesday. AVN is caused by low blood flow to a bone or joint, I have it in both of my femoral heads. In my case it was caused by high dose steroid use during chemotherapy. The low blood flow causes the bone to die and become misshapen which results in a lot of pain! The surgeon drilled holes through my bones to break up the dead bone tissue and allow more blood to reach the area, hopefully resulting in new tissue growth and no more AVN!

AVNsurgery

 

AVNpreop

The surgery went well and I didn’t even have to spend the night in the hospital like we originally thought (thank god). I kicked all of the pain meds after two days and have been able to get around fairly well on my crutches. I even went shopping yesterday! I am so pleased as I have a lot of exciting stuff coming up in the next few weeks and a lot of it was dependent on how I’d be feeling after this procedure!

Next week I will be participating in a panel at the SMAHRT (Social Media and Adolescent Health Research Team) Conference put on by the Seattle Children’s Research Institute. The next day, I’m jumping on a plane and heading to a camp for young adult cancer patients in Arizona. The camp is being put on by the Dream Street Foundation and it is at a spa! To be honest, I’m a little nervous because there is supposed to be a lot of heartfelt talks and group therapy which is something I have been avoiding for months. I’m hoping to have a great experience and meet some cool people, and if all else fails, at least its at a spa!

Lastly, I am finally moving back to LA! Most of you know that I was living in LA and going to design school before I got sick. Most of you probably don’t know that since I got back and began chemo, all I’ve been trying to do is get back there! The thought of getting back to LA and back to my friends and my life was what got me through the dark times in my chemotherapy. It’s taken me longer than I thought it would, but I never gave up and now I’m finally going to be moving back! I can’t wait for August to start and for me to start taking my life back for real!

Look out world!

xoxo Kathy

PS I’ll be continuing my Leukoenceph. story this week!! Click here for part 1 or part 2